Oh it's been a while.
It's interesting how many thoughts go through our mind every moment in our daily life.
They just fly by, leaving split second of impression and then gone.
Sometimes I think about jotting them down, like any good writers would do, or not do, but the sight in front of me keeps busy, or I've got to do this and that to keep my so called life rolling.
Then I think to myself, what is it really that I live for.
Life, a job, bills, spare time, friends, success, sleep, Facebook, life, life and life.
To be honest, what we talk about all the time in words never really meant much to me.
Going though life, taking care of things, being successful, being who I am , or who I am supposed be, or whatever.
To me , it's all about the ones you love, and the ones who love you, and all the love that being exchanged.
We always repeat ourselves like a broken tape recorder, trying to convince ourselves we are doing well. (if you don't, awesome.)
Why?
Just to feel that we are not alone, perhaps.
Someone I went to high school with posted on Facebook about how he questions the difference between education and brainwashing. I thought he was pointing out something pretty important.
His "friends" posted back some long and serious messages like 5,6 or 10 paragraphs stating their well thought opinions.
I just posted, "be honest to your heart and enjoy the day."
Sometimes I feel like I am Bill Murray living the Ground Hog Day, because the world is so bound to the idea, whatever it may be, that today is merely an extension of yesterday.
The alarm goes off, and the continuation of this life is defined by so many structured conformity.
This never changed whether I was living a good life or was in the time of struggle.
Everything was defined by comparative measures, thanks to scientific and mathematical perspective towards life which was ingrained in me by the good old education.
I know that education have its uses.
But the thing is that all the people I had ever found fascination toward weren't really educated in a modern world sense.
They almost always had this sense of complex inferiority toward the world.
But they were more free than the ones I knew through educational institutions or the ones succeeding in the prestige corporate world or such, who always seemed content, but somewhere they seemed like they were searching for something.
I take no one's side. I respect all of their lives equally.
Because all of us are alive today in this world simultaneously. 7 freaking billions and counting.
I guess I was fortunate to have opportunities to meet so many people from different aspects and stances of life.
Beyond our small sense of "self", there are 7 billion souls out there actually living and breathing, running around or sleeping, sick, healthy, old, young, being born, dying, loosing mind, finding self, settling, exploring, male, female, good or bad (whatever that means), sad, happy, loving, crazy, depressed, blessed, angry, excited, etc, all living and breathing right now somewhere on this earth.
It's pretty crazy, maybe frightening. But it's also pretty damn amazing.
Like Louie Armstrong said, It's a wonderful world, I must say.
I wonder what all these flowing thoughts mean in terms of living this life.
Writing and sharing I suppose have its meaning, but it doesn't make much difference to me.
I thank you, though, if you are reading.
I'm actually writing this out there to the universe.
I don't really know what it is that I want to write about at the moment
except the part I want to share my idea on life about comparison.
From the moment we wake up to the moment we fall asleep, all we face is comparison and competition, defined by the physical and materialistic things in life (if not, great. and I live more of that life these days and I'm really thankful for my loved ones for that).
I will get right to the point.
It's time to stop comparing ourselves to others. Or our lives to that of others.
Regardless of what you may believe in or what religion or philosophy, school of thought, or ism, or political party you belong to or not, or cool, or not cool, successful or not, or happy or depressed, healthy or dying, only thing we can really agree is that we know this life time is here for only once, however short or long it may be.
Whether there is heaven or hell, or reincarnation, or seventy some virgins or whatever else. This life time is here for once, although we will never really know til death anyway, and if there is void after that, we would never really know. I have my own belief, but again, I will never REALLY know.
Well, I can say I know. Because it is true to me, but I can't take anyone else to actually physically show you what I think is the so called truth like a tour through NYC. "Here is the end of life and this is exactly what happens, make sure you take a group picture in front of it to tell all your friends about it." you get my point. If you can show me through it, let me know. Just remember that I have no money to give you for it.
Now here is the thing. How do you compare your life to anything else if there is only this one life.
Really.
Most of us know the basic mathematics.
If there is only one, how do you compare it? Compare to what else?
You can compare it to that of others, but they are not you.
Each of you have different context of life, no matter how close the others' life may seem to your own.
My life is here for once for sure, what ever comes after or not come after.
There is not another life in the world to compare it to.
Neighbor's grass is always greener and we always want what we don't have.
This is like a Ground Hog Day formula of life.
I like the idea of not being bothered by this stupidity.
Better car, better life, better job, better outfit, better body, better vacation, better house, better friend, better family, better lover, better life, better income, better life, better life, better life...
It is absurd to pursue something that isn't really there.
The one you have is the only one you have.
It really is.
Because soon after we think we have something better, as time pass by it becomes the same as what we had previously.
We are creatures of habits. We think we earned something better, then we get used to it.
Then we want more, more, more, on and on and on.
For example, let's talk about TVs and cars, since they are like our necessities of life today
(by the way I do not watch TV because it is just simply absurd, although I understand the importance of entertainment. There are too many better things out there than staring at a screen made of plastic and other things.)
Just remember what kind of TV or car you used to have 10 years ago.
You most likely have upgraded since TV and car industries upgrade there products rapidly and continuously to keep you paying and happy.
But I can guarantee you that after 10 years many of you still want a better car, maybe BMW, or Land Rover, or Mercedes Benz, Lexas, or bigger and better flat screen TV with better quality with more features. The idea or the part of "wanting the better one" stays the same.
TVs and cars actually consist of metal, plastic, and other raw materials, which were all excavated from the very earth we live on. From unique and forgotten perspective, of course, we always want to take more and more things from the earth.
Ironic, isn't it?
I think it's very similar to the idea of "tomorrow".
If you think about it, "tomorrow" never comes.
Because "tomorrow" means "the day after today".
We always live in "today". We never live in "tomorrow", since "tomorrow" becomes "today" the moment we wake up.
This must be the so called "illusion" of life, the wise men had always pointed out in history.
Everyday we sleep (if you are insomniac, then maybe every 30 days or how long ever your body can tolerate), and the new day comes. Everyday is a new day. The Sun sets, and rises. The cells in our
body die and regenerate.
Waves in the ocean come and go. The tide rises and retreats. It rains and it is sunny after.
Everything circles around as the Earth spins around the Sun in a grand scale beyond our daily life, and the Nucleus and Electrons also spin around Atoms in similar fashion in the most miniscule scale.
So I like to appreciate "today" and not dwell on anything, I mean anything.
Enjoy the day. Enjoy the sunny day, enjoy the rainy day, cause plants we eat from need water.
Cherish the time with the ones you love. Cherish right now, however it may feel at the moment, or whatever life presents.
Seize the moment, every moment or enjoy being lazy. Seize the lazy moment.
Every single moment, regardless of the emotional quality, becomes part of our own personal history.
There is absolutely no such thing as waste in life.
They are part of a whole as life, part of this once in this universe experience, the life we live.
"The time you enjoy wasting is not wasted time" - John Lennon.
I am done writing because I want a beer now.
Have a nice day in this crazy and wonderful world.
cheers,
Y
